It's funny how things change. Feelings change, people change, life changes. The constant thing about this world is change. I think GOD made that for a reason. Life is ever growing and ever moving. I wonder what my life would be like in 5 years. Will I be thinking about the same thing. Will I be stressing over the same stuff. I must admit, I am rather frustrated at this time. I'm always broke. Thank GOD for folks that care about me and are motivated by my sense of being. What would I do without the folks that truly care. I try not to stress so much. But I'm such a proud person. I must realize that GOD has a plan for me. I've been fighting it for so long, but now I need to give in. I'm scared. The unknown frightens me terribly. Some one once told me that people are often scared of success. I'm not scared of success, I'm scared of failure. But what is failure? Is failure attempting but not succeeding, or is failure not attempting at all? Hmmm.
Out of all this, I've learned that I can only be me. I can only do what I know how to do. I can only do what I have the heart to do. I can only do what I'm put here to do. I can never be someone other then me. I can never be what other's want me to be. I can never know it all or attempt to learn it all. GOD is the only thing that keeps me going sometimes. Because I know that someday I must answer to a higher authority. And that is my motivation.

I believe that GOD is always watching and ever knowing. We cannot begin to understand his knowledge and what he has for us. I only pray that I'm worthy and that one day I'll get to see Jesus.