Still can't sleep. I'm sick and I'm sooo tired. I took some Dayquil. It keeps me up. And to make it worse, I have to go to work tomorrow. All that's on my mind is November 2nd. I still have so much to do, and I'm stressed. I wish things would lighten up, but they aren't the load is just getting heavier. While I'm awake, I've been doing some thinking. About me and how I feel about others. Particularly the male species. I guess I'm alone for a reason. For the life of me I just don't understand men and their motivations. I"m grown and do not have time for high school games. Therefore, a single woman I must be. Only until I find someone who truly cares. Which I have yet to find. I'm so fed up with folks right about now. I just want to go to sleep. Please no more thoughts. No more Rants, Daily updates, and late night utterings. Why can't shit be normal for a change. Why can't I be just like everyone else. Why is the creativity constantly invading my mind and burning my soul. The passion that stirs a creative mind can also lead to madness. Maybe, I should take a hiatis and reflect on my life for a moment. Just to see where it's going. Is it going in a direction that is best for me? All I ever wanted to do was make clothes. That's it. Just make a living making clothes. Somehow, EVOCATIVE! became a whole world. And I'm just a resident in it.