Wake Up!

3:36 in the am, and of course I cannot sleep...Hence the title of this blog. I call this wake up. Funny thing is I never remember sleeping much. Even when I was young. And ironically, my son has the same plight. IDK why, maybe it's a sag thing...I just don't sleep a lot. Well let's just say I'm sleep challenged. There you go. My mind has always been deep in thought. I mean all the time, and sleep is no exception. Often I dream about work that I don't have to do, or that is in the works. My anxiety level can be high. But it's the late night that often inspires me to be the person I am. And often time it's when my mind gets things done. And while the rest of the world is sleeping, my mind is constantly working. A gift and a curse. I've always wanted more out of life. I always am pushing towards something more then what I was given. And the older I get, I realize that not everyone is the same. I feel like if God gives you a gift, who are you to squander it? There are people born without any talent, without any gift, and here God gives you this great ability and you let it sit on a shelf and collect dust? The nerve of some people. And then I run across the people who think that wealth is money. Who look down about anyone or anything else that makes less money then them. I say this. Jesus was a carpenter. He was not rich. His family was poor. His followers were poor. His disciples were poor. But yet it's a lot of so called Christian people out here looking down upon the poor...I'm just saying. If you worship Christ then you should strive to be more Christ like. Have an understanding that earthly riches are just that. A fulfilled life is often a humbled one. Just ask any rich lonely man. You cannot buy happiness. You cannot buy love. And while we may resent that struggle. The struggle has built character. The struggle has built drive. The struggle has built humbleness. Often times I want to yell WAKE UP! In the middle of the night. But sometimes I feel like each one teach one. And if I have taught one then my job is done. I cannot answer for those who do not wish to pursue and live in the gift that GOD has given them. All I can do is try to give advice..I can try to mentor... I can try to be a good friend. A good Sister. A good daughter. A good mother...A good lover. A good wife...