Something has to give...

I can't take it anymore.
Something has to budge.
Constantly broke and alone.
Christmas wasn't too blame cause I didn't get anybody anything.
I couldn't afford it.
I felt sooooo guilty.
Eventhough Christmas isn't about gifts, it's about love and sharing.
I still felt like crap.
I have to get out of Baltimore.
There's nothing for me here.
Just a bunch of broken promises and lies.
Something has to give.
Trying to make a dollar out of 15 cents isn't working anymore.
Pressure, pressure and more pressure.
But I know that something will give.
It has to.

Loving you...

Is so hard.
I'm trying to fight it.
I'm trying to pretend it's not true.
I'm attempting to work it out.
I'm trying to be there for you.
I'm trying to wait it out.
Are you for me?
I really have no idea.
But the love is getting stronger and the passion is getting more intense.
Now one look in your eyes stirs my inner being.
Not a day can go pass without you being on my brain.
I dream about you, and wake up thinking of you.
I wonder if I love you so much because I know I can't have you.
Or do I love you because of our friendship?
Are you the person that's meant for me?
Or are you another man wandering in and out of my life?
It's hard to move on, when all I want and think of is you.
Ultimately, I must make a decision.
I'm still torn.